Cate poate inspira o opera muzicala?
Mai multe lucruri decat pot eu sa numar pe toate degetele.. si nu ma refer doar la operele lui Vivaldi sau Beethoven, ci orice melodie care iti place, care iti aduce aminte de ceva, care te duce cu gandul la un anumit obiect, persoana, eveniment care fie s-a intamplat sau ti-l imaginezi tu ca se va intampla.. Ascultam nu stiu ce melodie acum doua seri si asta s-a derulat in mintea mea..
She was running through the rain, her hair and clothes already drenched, weighting on her like a heavy curtain, the cool night air giving her chills. She could see the road stretching on and on in front of her, street lights looking eerie surrounded by the little clouds of mist. The cold fresh air went through her nostrils like whips, but she couldn’t, wouldn’t stop running until either she collapsed on the pavement or she reached her safe haven. But where that was she didn’t know.
So she ran and ran, never looking back. Why was she running? She was running away. What from? Everything. It was that simple. She was a coward. She didn’t have the strength to face her problems, she couldn’t make important choices because she was always afraid they weren’t the right ones. So she ran away from her old life, embracing a new one. A safe world, where people didn’t know her, where she wasn’t exposed, where she could fit in and not stand out. Where she would be left alone. Where people didn’t know her weaknesses. She was a coward.
She didn’t feel chased anymore so she stopped. She felt safe for a second and she turned to make sure she wasn’t followed anymore. She knew who was after her. She didn’t want to face him. She had screwed up too hard, she couldn’t make up for it. Why he was chasing her was a guess as good as any. Maybe he wanted her to confront him. But he knew that pushing her to do something she didn’t want to would only drive her further away. Maybe he had forgotten. Or maybe he didn’t care anymore. Didn’t care that he was hurting her, not physically, but mentally, or more accurate, sentimentally. She had opened up to him, had told him things she hadn’t told anyone. She had known what she was doing, sharing herself with him, knew it could one day come against her. But she didn’t care. She loved him.
She resumed walking. Where? To a safe place, somewhere she would belong. Maybe she should move into another town. The only thing tying her to this one was him. She always lived that way, never depending on anyone. But she had trusted him, she had leaned on him for support. Something she had sworn not to do since their death. Her parents’ deaths. They hadn’t died in a car crash or anything like that. They were no collateral damage. They were heroes. They had tried to save some innocent kids from a fire. But they had failed. They had left her alone in the world. Their deaths had ripped her soul apart and it took her years to build it back, piece by piece. ‘Never let anyone in. You can’t make it twice through that pain.’ she had told herself. That had been her mantra, until she had met him.
She didn’t know how it happened. She had tried to understand, but had failed miserably. And then she’d given up on that. What difference did it make if she knew why she felt all those feelings for him or if she didn’t? He had captured her heart with his looks, his understanding manner, always putting her wishes above his, making her feel special and beautiful, cared for, loved. And then, after months of special, happy time they came to a halt before a too high wall to climb over.
And she had ran, like a coward, instead of grasping his hand and trying to walk around the barrier. She had abandoned him, only unlike her parents, she had done so consciously. She was so selfish, taking the easy way, instead of squaring her shoulders and lifting her head, confronting life. But that’s what she was and would ever be. A coward, always running away, looking for a safe place, where nothing could hurt her. But where was that?
She looked up to see where her feet had taken her. She was standing in front of his house. Their house. She began to cry. Whether from happiness or despair she didn’t know. But she realised then where she belonged, with him. She felt safe there, even if times ahead of them would be tough. She stood there, in front of the door, crying, unable to move, to knock, to open the door and walk in.
And that’s how he found her. Crying miserably on their doormat, unable to form a coherent sentence. But even though she looked like hell and was drenching wet, he hugged her, whispering in her ear over and over to be strong and that it was going to be ok. After she had calmed down a bit, he let go of her to look into her eyes and whisper a promise she would remember forever.. “We’ll deal with it, like we always have, together.”